i have thought about what i am to do for this next season and i think i have a direction, or a clear voice from the lord. i will not divulge it now but rather, wait, and get confirmation from my friends. yesterday in worship i really felt a peace about the decision and thought about how awesome it is to finally not have a trust dependent on my circumstances. i really wanted to say it out loud on the mic. "if god's goodness, if his blessing, if his love were all dependent on the circumstances, who would stick around to love him or pursue his presence?" not i. because it isn't. this earth, as we accept it, is a sin cursed earth, full of deceit, full of disease, full of obstacles, and this isn't gonna change, because there is sin on this earth. sin is a direct influence on the change of circumstances. because of sin we experience a flux of circumstances that trouble our emotions. god's love is the balance, god's love is the advice that brings our life into homeostasis. i believe he has the power to change the circumstances, i believe he could intervene and change what is going on. i know, however, god has given free will, for him to intervene and change things removes the power of free will which he bestows, because he wants his children to love him for who he is not for what they experience.