Wednesday, May 6, 2009

time keeps on tick, tick, tickin away

oh my gosh i am ready for a fixed schedule! does anyone ever have these seasons where they want everything to be normal and fixed every week. i wanna wake up every monday knowing what i need to be doing that week and doing it in the prearranged time. i attribute this to school and the ever changing process of my study habits. i am not sure when i will have time to study this, write that, or read that text. i can't wait for a normal work schedule to reveal itself from behind the veil. whole foods is not helping this either with the off days switching from day to day. oh well. i do wonder though how much control i have of my routine. i guess a mock weekly schedule is appropriate for clarity:

my waking will take place before the 8am call of the beckoning child (as though i get up anyway to get peanut). the rise is followed by my neck exercises prescribed by dr. rob and a quick breakfast consisting of toasted ezekiel bread with butter and honey as toppings, all washed down by the decaf chai medley i have mastered. this sound wonderful, no? well, who asked you anyway? off to the dr. to get my spinal fix, back home again to attend to my sons needs for an hour. since this is my mock schedule i would like to go to work around 11am and end my work day around 7pm. ending at 7 assures me that i will make it to the prayer center by 8 for the weekly watch with landon, allyster, danny, jon and sometimes hunter. by the way, this watch has been going great so if anyone would like to come to worship with us, and i am not gonna lie, it's a little louder than the average prayer center worship, than by all means make your way up there. the watch ends at 10 and i am off to la maison for sleep, and maybe a sneak attack ; ). 

hopefully the sleep has warranted my body enough ability to concentrate on any studying i would like to achieve before the rest of the fam wakes. when i say studying i do not mean school, i mean the bible and the current book i am reading. the one i am reading now is the political writings of john adams. i would think that work would be efficient for me so tracking off to whole foods marketplace around 10am would be great. the gathering takes place on tuesday nights so a night of fellowship with friends and compadres would be nice. then off to the house hopefully in a decent timely fashion to do the marriage dance with liz. 

this day is similar to monday mornings routine except that when i get home i would love to do some exercise outside. when i am done with that hang out with my son before his afternoon nap. maybe this day i would like to have off and just be able to contemplate about my life and things going on in my friends lives to see how i could benefit them. i like to be actively seeking out ways to help my friends and not waiting until something traumatizing happens before i make a move a noticeable care. since i am starting my practicum i may go to the site on this day later on in the afternoon or evening and visit with clients. man, that sentence sounds so great to me! since i am attempting to transition out of 1829 i would spend the evening working at the clinic. this would not be a late night, well, if lost is still going then it will be a late night over at nathan's house. i would be home by 11 barring that the lost crew make it to his house on time and we start the show. but after the seasons finale i believe some good ole fashion hanging out is best.

this morning is "study the word" morning. i mean study study study. maybe good ideas to complete the curriculum's i am in the process of writing. but noon is lunch with the fam and then off to the counseling center to do more counseling. done by 6 or 7 and back home to have dinner with one of the couples or individuals liz and i love to minister to. 

i would hope to work early this day so that i can have off by 33o or 4ish. come home hang with the kid and wife before heading over to a shabbat service with one of the shabbat parties that happen (watkins, dunn's, my parents, smith's, etc.). this day is all geared towards getting the weeks stuff done so that fellowship and fun can take its toll. 

 i enjoy taking dutch over to my mom's house so that liz and i can have our morning time for breakfast and stuff. later on in the afternoon i would maybe go to work til around 8ish. 

this day is scattered. usually i am on someone's worship team. i am currently playing at a church in southlake called eleven7 and another church in friscoe called 4 corners calls me every now and then to play. i do wish, however, that shady grove payed their players. i play at shady for free because i love that it is different than the other two, and of course it is my home church. church in the morning and then afternoon is nap time and i don't know why it is so necessary for a nap but if it doesn't happen then forget about it. usually all this is said and done by 3ish. the night is open but ideally what i like to do is venture up to shady grove and play in the auditorium by myself and work on music that i have written. it's fun and therapeutic for me. get home and think about the whole thing starting over again.

i know many can't handle a routine. they have many reasons why they couldn't. i think it is easier to change routine than it is to change sporadic schedules. at the current time i can't plan to meet with anyone to hang out or talk til i find out my schedule first. i can't invite couples over for dinner til i find out what nights i have for school. but i love schedules and i love routines. i feel as though i can recall what i am actually getting done in life. with an unclear schedule i am always thinking about what i wish, should, or need to be doing at that time instead of what i am doing. i do feel like great things are about to happen because of the faith, prayers, and desires that my heart has expressed to the god who is living and breathing.

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