Monday, February 14, 2011
the benefits of less friendships
what i have entered into is the awareness of an "away" home and a "home" home. here now, my circle of friendships in waterloo is dim and very small. on any given weekend i may experience the company of my texan friends for a day or maybe even less than that. the waterloo house's company may be all that exists for that weekend outside my family. part of me feels it is necessary to check my pulse and see if i am truly alive. the contexts are extremely different. if i am not careful with which mentality to have at the moment i could get lost in a desire to experience the fellowship i once had very prevalently and be left to disappointment. being here the mentality should be, "you have friends, you just don't know them yet," and with it a chance to be me all the while start over on those character flaws i felt so strongly to terminate back home. in the meantime (which is not to say or suggest is less important or uneventful) i am able to spend massive quantitative time with my boys and beautiful wife. to my advantage in order to find quality i must go through quantity when it comes to family. perhaps this is why so many family members seem to miss a quality language with their other members due to them not wanting to spend quantitative time. my heart leaps for joy when i read a text that my wife is on the early train home for the day. i love pulling up to dutch's school and seeing his face light up to see me...then quickly i give him a banana for the ride home. i sing praises when titus and i are able to go for a quick afternoon stroll around our area after lunch. and even as the sunlight pounds my windows flooding my living room with light i begin to see that i love both quality and quantity just the same with my family.